Table Rock (No.2)--24x20 Aug 2010
Under an ochre sky
Shadows cast, juxtaposed
Press the limits of the mind
Jaundice of the eye
I stayed as long as a woman could without dying
That’s what my mind said when I paid attention to it
There was a film clip to go along with it
Deep blues and reds
Creativity unfurls and flames
Flashing through the water
Penetrating into the very crevices
Then, following the surface flare
Newness arises
Moving along
Undoubtedly
My beloved has been taken from me
Wrenched from my embrace
Blood pouring from wounds
Where once we were inextricably entwined
My heart, my soul bereft
I flounder in the aftermath
Weeping blood, so lost
Until the scar tissue forms
And I forget
Then eons later, as I blindly search
I find myself immersed
In a pool of liquid warmth
An exquisitely pure energy
Filling my heart
My eyes, long closed, open wide in recognition
Before me, I see, suspended in the dark space
Deep, deep red curving shapes
Graceful pendants of solid glass
Glistening reflections beckoning
I move forward into this space
Heeding the siren call
A single ruby swirl
Penetrating my right eye
The smooth flow perfect
The entire periphery of my upper torso
Aflame, aflow in the red glow
The tingling warmth lights liquid fires
In a slow wave down
The inside of my right arm
Dissolving the skin
Uniting it with my heart
The warm, meaningful flow
Fills my entire body
And opens a column of space around my spine
Patiently I wait
As the sweet, liquid softness gathers at my base
As the clear fluidity slowly rises
Gently pulsing upward
Until this slow liquid pleasure
Explodes in slow motion
Out of the top of my head
Circling around to engulf my entire being
In the smooth softness, I relax
The shimmering builds again, laced with grief
And deep, deep longing
Pervasive poignancy
I fall from the cusp
Shockwaves striking me
As every muscle clenches inward
Rock-like
And in this eternal hardness
A certainty, absolute and undeniable
GIVE IT BACK!
I hear, I say
GIVE MY BELOVED BACK!
Cosmic Hot-tub--20x16 Ma 2010 aka Merging Strength
detail
Morning at Elk River 24x30 (Jan 2010)
Long shadows of morning
Angle across my face
Bright aliveness in my eyes
Revealing the soul within
Completely
Immersed in who I am
As I am, no facades
Nothing to do
Experiencing truth
While soaring
Low over a vast silver lake
Ancient but so crisply new
Dark coolness in the wind
As I rush through it
Clouds beneath me
Stretching to infinity
I long to melt into the stars
Echoing the vast lake
Haunted by the siren of the soul
Heed the silent call of home
The way ahead winds to the left
Obscuring my view
My feet trod of a will beyond
The hardness of stone beneath them
Cool amid the red
Shadows hang heavy from the limbs above
Shades of mystery strewn along the way
Interspersed with knowing
A walk I take with trust
No longer clothed in the thinning mist
Illumination comes brightly
A source beyond
The sudden brilliance striking bold
On the path ahead
Come hence, casey
Step into the luxurious light
Bathe in the luminosity of truth
Found on walking on a path
Illumination on the Path 30x40 July 2009
Immersed in Lightness (March 2009)
I painted this during a Diamond Approach weekend. I remember painting in white for a long time, so long that a little friend of my son's noted on his 6th or 7th run past my easel: "Mrs. Olson, I don't see what you're painting."
The woman slowly comes awake
Awareness rising as wisps
As the blue fissures dissolve the weight
Flowing into rhythm
Immersed in golden white
Awed by the exquisitude
Stretched to sheer endlessness
Touched by the light
Rising as the crest
Poised as perfection
Emanating me
Gently sighing back into the depths
The Indigo Sea (No. 3)
Come with me, my love, and we’ll go to the indigo sea
Floating within ourselves together
Ahhhh, my sweet, let us go
Drifting, swelling, falling, free
Wake, my sleepyhead, do not fear
Feel the rising, trust, let it go
Come with me and we’ll go to the indigo sea
And there we’ll rest and just be…
Come with me, my love, and we’ll go to the indigo sea
And watch with magical eyes
As yearning uncloaks
Come with me and sip of the indigo sea
From possibility into being.
The strokes of my brush
Creating as I go.
I come from that.
Serendipitous images of vortex:
Liquid stalactites, a golden curl, a story of wind vortices in the pine trees,
the flow of my garden, the shape of my core.
Moving, now a vertical undulation
Building momentum
Increasing sentience
Spiraling into a Fourier transform
Here I am, in the place to which I’ve come.
Now I must risk, be vulnerable
Willing to look back up the cervix of the vortex. To my source.
Die a small death and reside there.
Melting the Illusion of Reality (2007)
Oh, my sweet Beloved,
Take this body
Do with it as you will
I surrender
I surrender it to you
With joy in my heart
Laughter on my lips
Tears on my face
And crazy-loco with anticipation in my soul
All I beg is that I be allowed
To dwell within you
Within your loving gaze
Within your warm embrace
I am yours
I feel you here
My heart is yours
It loves infinitely
It is strong and ever-expanding
Forgiving and true
Can you hear it?
You-you…you-you
Oh, my sweet God
Take these hands, this magical key
They will paint your beauty
Write words of love
Touch with adoring attention
Make lovelies to adorn your toes
And play toss with the sphere of me
And my soul, you already have
But please keep it, please
It is a wonderful reflection of you
I know you love it
Looking in this tiny mirror
And seeing a miniature you
Oh, Beloved you.
In stillness, love awaits
In the silence it resides
In openness, I discover lightness and space
In lightness, I am revealed
In space, I re-emerge in the shape of my true nature
True nature that sings of purity and simple being
Exploring the universe in my heart, as my heart
I encounter genuine existence
In a gentleness of grace
And that the of joy of this is so accessible
So easy, like slipping on a soft robe
Rest, focus, open
Expand, relax, assimilate
Integrate over time
Allow the organic flowering
Trust the flow
Know there is a meaning and intelligence in this universe
That reveals as it goes
Widen the eyes so that it can be seen
Open the heart so love may overflow
True knowledge of the universe contained within
And it starts with me
As I open in truth and clarity
As I show the beauty of myself to Another
And allow the exquisite manifestation of god that I am
To shine through this sweet body
I see Another and Another sees me
We are two, inextricably entwined yet inexplicably unique
As Another sees her reflection in me
She glimpses her own essence of perfection and being
And recognizes home
Oh, the sweet warmth of that moment
All these moments
The swirling dance of shakti
That forms the heart bond of shared awareness
Of shared existence
Opening wider
So completely immersed in Another
My body suspended in the liquid luminosity
I weep with joy
As the lines of my body dissolve
Into this great warmth
And the two become one
A union of two becomes the only One
This pure existence and source of all being
That is God
And, so, please my sweet beloved Another
Lead me home.
Here in the heart of my belly
There is room for balm
Strength in the softness
Love in the support
Purple and lavender, black and silver
Taking the gravity off my body in thrilling swoops
A silver fulcrum
Balance and lever both
In the soothing nourishment of this soft light
There beats an impulse toward freedom
And freedom in the impulse
Both
Lavender Moon Balm, July 2013, 20x16
“I stayed as long as a woman could without dying...”
The cradle of the moon holds my essence
Ever so gently
The pale light surrounds my heart
And this ever increasing knowing of strength
Enfolds me as I dissolve into the pale light
Yet this wet golden cup holds this wet goldness
I have become
As the clouds drift across the moon’s face
No matter
For I find the clouds hold me just as safely
Waiting there below as the moon tips
And I slide noiselessly from the crescent womb
The golden luminosity coalesces
As this, what I call I
And as the beauty of love infuses each new awakening
So I rise again
Fashioned lovingly by the pale golden light