A Melting Resolution 16x20 Dec 2016
The inner space broadens
A dark screen on which understanding plays
The openness arching away till it is no longer perceptible
A hum of blue in the black depths
A still pool of grace emerges
Aware of my consciousness as that
No edges but contained within
Liquid warmness within the cool dark emptiness of the endless
I watch as identification transfers from self
To grace
And, as grace, melting into endlessness
Silent, deep, suspended
Aware of moving along the perceptual continuum
Looking back and seeing the forms
From where awareness takes no form
Yet being the forms, too, within the space
Feeling the knowing that forms are simply forms
Formed from the formlessness
The same thing
Looking up to the right, high above on a solid spot
A distant figure
The idealized self-created father image
Whom I desired so to please
Whose love I begged
And who I perceived as the source of grace
He is a tool of the super-ego
Having me do his will
To maintain the relative position of two
Aware of the resolution of the rejecting object relation
As the figure slides downward
Slipping shapelessly into the black depths
Loving grace expands
There, too, in the dark cavern below, almost invisible, is the beast
An amalgamation of writhing, twisted form
Like chameleon poop
Anti-grace
Smoothness subsumes it
Loving light amasses
Arising as a perception of the expanse
The expanse perceiving itself as that luminosity
Infusing, suffusing, permeating
Pervasive grace
All in a drop
All the while, this “trace of casey” marks the spot